The Main Symptoms of an Existential Crisis

Joana

03/19/2016

Hello, I want to tell Maite that it is very good to have a psychoblog where people can express themselves (something basic to express themselves) and perhaps find a possible solution, although on the other hand I see your advice very short, almost always referring to the people who comment Let them go to a psychologist, talk to someone about their family, do sports or walk through nature … that all that is very good, but I think a much more open approach is missing. I personally went through 5 psychologists who did not solve anything at all, I had existential crises since the age of 11, which of course I did not comment with anyone because I was sure that no one could understand me. And for my part I didn’t even understand the world, nor did I understand that I was asked to follow some patterns in which I did not believe. I spent many crises again: at 14, at 16,17,19,23 … the greatest of all (for the moment, because it is never known) at 35, where all the duels that had not made were added, all the depressions that I had set aside, and the last one exploded, the depression of the “empty nest”. With 15 years I studied and worked and believed so old, so mature, that when I was pregnant I thought “I can only”, because deep down I knew that the relationship with the person from whom I was in love, and who was pregnant, not I was going to last too much. I lost my parents because as they are of an outdated mentality, they did not want a teenager with “belly” at home, and the one who “threw me out of the house”, in the background I had created it unconsciously, since I had not wanted to live years ago There, with an abuser father. And as the unconscious governs us mostly than the conscious, what happened is that I jumped from one home where I was mistreated to another where I also went, that is, that I was going from my parents’ house was a “return home” , since I found the same situation of helplessness in the abuse of my husband. I last less than three years, and “escape” again from an unsustainable situation, which made me have suicidal thoughts. I will not tell all my stories, I summarize that I was being “father and mother” at the same time for a few years, and when my daughter left (that I had been the engine of my life) the world fell again, and This time without cause to fight, because my self -esteem was seriously deteriorated. This time I let myself be fully hugged by penalty, anguish, pain, disenchantment, fatigue, with such a big and heavy sadness that I could barely speak slowly, walk slowly, the air was dense and suffocated. I was crying every day and lost many kilos, so from within me the “survival” mode was activated and I went out to look for a humanistic therapist, since neither the pills for the depression that had prescribed me, nor the hours with the psychologists No effect were supplied. In the first interview we had, I told him that I wanted active therapy, and that I needed to understand, understand, so I asked him to give me book titles. Gestalt therapy and recommended books, in addition to work with the enneagram, helped me enough to get out of that depression, and be strengthened, realizing that the human being is in a period of growth all my life, and that depression I had helped me grow, because it forced me to meet better, to understand me, to know and understand a little more to the rest of the world. From then on I have studied neurolinguistic programming, therapeutic work with dreams, ludoformation, risotherapy (basically to find my laughter), yoga, reiki, dance … fortunately, or the result of my effort, I have been able to work by giving yoga classes and dance, never in life I would have thought I was going to do … I have been a ceramist, gardener, product manager, therapist Energy … I found the passion for life … and I also found the fear of death: every time someone near I have it present, and now it doesn’t sad so much, but gives me more strength. PASI